You look at me and all you see are very big brown eyes and muscles and the things I’ve done in my past and you judge with such things, but do you know that I’ve been through? The tears of the storm and the pain of the lighting or did you know that my siblings are a bloodline that I don’t like to call my own .And you judge from things I do as if you know what I have been through. The pain I hold within is more deeper then a thorn cutting you from a bleeding rose, you see me ,yet ,do you know that my soul is blacker that a night sky on a rainy day ? You judge me why ? Cause I reflect on what you are scared to let out, at the tender age of five I was drowned in pain and sometimes it still feels very awful when I reflect on them. With no way out, I grew older not letting pain get to me but it slowly came back to haunt me . Why cause on the outside all you see is a happy Kid , but the inside is more hidden than what it may seem.
Tuesday, 13 September 2011
Monday, 12 September 2011
SO MANY REASONS WHY I STILL LOVE GOD !!!
ONE NIGHT A MAN HAD A DREAM. HE DREAMED HE WAS WALKING ALONG THE BEACH WITH THE LORD. ACROSS THE SKY FLASHED SCENES FROM HIS LIFE.FOR EACH SCENE HE NOTICED TWO SET OF FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND, ONE BELONGING TO HIM AND THE OTHER TO THE LORD. WHEN THE LAST SCENE OF HIS LIFE FLASHED BEFORE HIM HE LOOKED BACK AT HE FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND AND HE NOTICED THAT MANY TIMES ALONG THE PATH OF HIS LIFE THERE WAS ONLY A PAIR OF FOOTPRINTS ,HE ALSO NOTICED THAT IT HAPPENED AT THE VERY LOWEST AND SADDEST TIMES OF HIS LIFE. THIS REALLY BOTHERED HIM AND HE QUESTIONED THE LORD ABOUT IT. "LORD YOU SAID THAT ONCE I DECIDED TO FOLLOW YOU,YOU'D WALK WITH ME ALL THE WAY.BUT I HAVE NOTICED THAT DURING THE MOST TROUBLESOME TIMES IN MY LIFE, THERE WAS ONLY ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS, I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST YOU WOULD LEAVE ME: THE LORD REPLIED, "MY PRECIOUS, PRECIOUS CHILD, I LOVE YOU AND WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU, DURING YOUR TIMES OF TRAIL AND SUFFERING, WHEN YOU SEE ONLY ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS IT WAS THEN THAT I CARRIED YOU."
WHAT I FEEL , MIND OVER MATTER !!! PART 1
Dead or Alive can you see how the stress is formed
Instrumentals in my head pushing out real live deadly poems
They couldnt identify the body who's to say that I'm dead and gone
Personality shifting and spirits lifted leaving patterns to have grown
The name is Jordan not to be forgotten or left alone
Forget about the crosses or the teddy bears to be spread on the lawn
Or the notes and the flowers left in the memory of me being deceased in the coffin
Baby dont cry just keep your head up, just fed up, from all these other niggas stepping on the dead one
Just my expression
Now the days go on as the rain and the lightning hit my tombstone
I can hear every word that these people are saying
Wishing i was never alive in the first place why the f**k would you say that.
Now i come back to seek revenge from all my enemies,
Come in your sleep, 45 in your face now you remember me
Praying to God " Please nigga dont finish me "
Hah hah no room left for forgiveness I'm done letting you play me
My turn now all you see is bleeding eyes and the stainless off safety.
Having nightmares huh? i don't blame you i jus think you're crazy.
I'd never leave this earth without a struggle or a flame
Instrumentals in my head pushing out real live deadly poems
They couldnt identify the body who's to say that I'm dead and gone
Personality shifting and spirits lifted leaving patterns to have grown
The name is Jordan not to be forgotten or left alone
Forget about the crosses or the teddy bears to be spread on the lawn
Or the notes and the flowers left in the memory of me being deceased in the coffin
Baby dont cry just keep your head up, just fed up, from all these other niggas stepping on the dead one
Just my expression
Now the days go on as the rain and the lightning hit my tombstone
I can hear every word that these people are saying
Wishing i was never alive in the first place why the f**k would you say that.
Now i come back to seek revenge from all my enemies,
Come in your sleep, 45 in your face now you remember me
Praying to God " Please nigga dont finish me "
Hah hah no room left for forgiveness I'm done letting you play me
My turn now all you see is bleeding eyes and the stainless off safety.
Having nightmares huh? i don't blame you i jus think you're crazy.
I'd never leave this earth without a struggle or a flame
A Letter From My Heart To My Loyal Friends !
What up world ? Been a minute. I'd like to thank all my LOYAL friends who stop by to drop words of encouragement and wallposts or to even check up on me even if i stay off face book.... I'm truly grateful.
I'm sure you already know this life ain’t easy but we try so very hard to get to the end of that chapter of life individually.Taking all of the things I've learned with me while leaving all the rest of the “BS”(BULL SH!T) behind.
I've been tuned in somewhat to what's been happening out there with regards to real life issues. I can't even begin to tell y'all how much being on the outside and looking from within, having to witness all that's going on (and not going on) in Life affects me.
Not being able to do what I love especially,is like a whole Life sentence on its own. But I really do appreciate all the love, respect, shout outs and salutations during this very difficult period in my life.
Everybody from da homies Nana Loso Kwame, Nat Klaus Da Pralem, Jerry Amarteifio, my big bruh D’Cryme. Regardless of whether the gestures were the greatest or the smallest, they still meant the world to me , REAL TALK.
The separation from my art has definitely sparked an inferno of inspiration that will soon be felt by all. As a matter of fact, to show my appreciation to those that have been in support of me and what i stand for ( a fist on my chest). I'll be releasing a SINGLE very soon (couple of weeks though)
During this time of seclusion I have developed a mind full of thoughts, ideas, plans and strategies of change to incorporate into my professional endeavors, as well as my personal lifestyle. But none of them is as strong as my determination to conquer my own imperfections and my will to WIN NO MATTER WHAT!!!
I love, respect and appreciate all those who have stood beside me( from followers on twitter, to my LOVELY face book family ) and I have accepted those who didn't. But one thing is for sure and two for certain.
As long as the Most High blesses me with the ability to live and breath. My campaign will continue!!! Stronger, smarter, bigger and better than ever.
For those that doubt that me…See me when I become BIG
I'm sure you already know this life ain’t easy but we try so very hard to get to the end of that chapter of life individually.Taking all of the things I've learned with me while leaving all the rest of the “BS”(BULL SH!T) behind.
I've been tuned in somewhat to what's been happening out there with regards to real life issues. I can't even begin to tell y'all how much being on the outside and looking from within, having to witness all that's going on (and not going on) in Life affects me.
Not being able to do what I love especially,is like a whole Life sentence on its own. But I really do appreciate all the love, respect, shout outs and salutations during this very difficult period in my life.
Everybody from da homies Nana Loso Kwame, Nat Klaus Da Pralem, Jerry Amarteifio, my big bruh D’Cryme. Regardless of whether the gestures were the greatest or the smallest, they still meant the world to me , REAL TALK.
The separation from my art has definitely sparked an inferno of inspiration that will soon be felt by all. As a matter of fact, to show my appreciation to those that have been in support of me and what i stand for ( a fist on my chest). I'll be releasing a SINGLE very soon (couple of weeks though)
During this time of seclusion I have developed a mind full of thoughts, ideas, plans and strategies of change to incorporate into my professional endeavors, as well as my personal lifestyle. But none of them is as strong as my determination to conquer my own imperfections and my will to WIN NO MATTER WHAT!!!
I love, respect and appreciate all those who have stood beside me( from followers on twitter, to my LOVELY face book family ) and I have accepted those who didn't. But one thing is for sure and two for certain.
As long as the Most High blesses me with the ability to live and breath. My campaign will continue!!! Stronger, smarter, bigger and better than ever.
For those that doubt that me…See me when I become BIG
WHO I AM...NOT ASKING WHO AM I ?
WHAT IS THE TRUE FEELING THAT YOU GET WHEN YOU LOOK AT MY PICTURES? OR EVEN STARE INTO MY EYES, IF YOU’VE EVER MET ME IN PERSON ?
- A MAN OF MANY WORDS OR A MAN OF A MANY LIES ?
- A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL MAKE YOU FEEL IT WHEN HE TELLS YOU HE LOVES YOU
- A MAN OF MANY LIES WILL TELL YOU HE LOVES YOU JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL IT
TO ONE PERSON I MAY BE THE SAME THING BUT TO ANOTHER IT IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT
SEE WHEN YOU TELL SOMEONE HOW YOU FEEL TOWARDS THEM IT SHOULD BE FOLLOWED BY ACTIONS AND NOT JUST MERE WORDS
IT SHOULD COME FROM THE HEART FOR NO REASON MORE THAN TO EXPRESS YOUR EMOTIONS AND TO LET THE OTHER PERSON KNOW WHERE YOUR HEART IS
NOT JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT OR NEED SOMETHING AND THROUGH FEELINGS DON’T JUST GO AWAY AS SOON AS YOU DONT GET WHAT YOU WANT OR EXPECTED
A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL TELL YOU HIS LIFE (GOOD OR BAD) AND THE WAY HE HAS BEEN AND HOW GOOD AND BAD HE HAS TREATED PEOPLE
A MAN OF MANY LIES WILL TELL YOU HOW HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE VICTIM AND HOW GOOD HE HAS TREATED EVERYBODY BUT WAITS TILL HE IS WITH YOU TO LET YOU FIND OUT THE TRUTH
SOME WILL SAY I AM A MAN OF MANY WORDS AND OTHERS MAY SAY I AM A MAN OF MANY LIES
I HAVE BEEN BOTH AND I SHOW NO SHAME BECAUSE A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL LET YOU KNOW ALL OF THAT...
- A MAN OF MANY WORDS OR A MAN OF A MANY LIES ?
- A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL MAKE YOU FEEL IT WHEN HE TELLS YOU HE LOVES YOU
- A MAN OF MANY LIES WILL TELL YOU HE LOVES YOU JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL IT
TO ONE PERSON I MAY BE THE SAME THING BUT TO ANOTHER IT IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT
SEE WHEN YOU TELL SOMEONE HOW YOU FEEL TOWARDS THEM IT SHOULD BE FOLLOWED BY ACTIONS AND NOT JUST MERE WORDS
IT SHOULD COME FROM THE HEART FOR NO REASON MORE THAN TO EXPRESS YOUR EMOTIONS AND TO LET THE OTHER PERSON KNOW WHERE YOUR HEART IS
NOT JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT OR NEED SOMETHING AND THROUGH FEELINGS DON’T JUST GO AWAY AS SOON AS YOU DONT GET WHAT YOU WANT OR EXPECTED
A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL TELL YOU HIS LIFE (GOOD OR BAD) AND THE WAY HE HAS BEEN AND HOW GOOD AND BAD HE HAS TREATED PEOPLE
A MAN OF MANY LIES WILL TELL YOU HOW HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE VICTIM AND HOW GOOD HE HAS TREATED EVERYBODY BUT WAITS TILL HE IS WITH YOU TO LET YOU FIND OUT THE TRUTH
SOME WILL SAY I AM A MAN OF MANY WORDS AND OTHERS MAY SAY I AM A MAN OF MANY LIES
I HAVE BEEN BOTH AND I SHOW NO SHAME BECAUSE A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL LET YOU KNOW ALL OF THAT...
DEATHS' NEW APPRENTICE....
I saw its hands placed upon a humans heart and took the most important thing to him, his soul. As I watched him take him to the other side he pointed at me like I'm next to go, but in his hollowed eyes it wasn't my time ,but gave me a job in the end, so he handed me his scythe and cloak to go do his job as deaths' new apprentice. I'd caused a lot of chaos in every century of the globe terrorized them, gave them time to do whatever they wanted until I made that final decision. Death never came back because it was officially mine for the taking . As the world is being swallowed by greed I continue taking souls until the END OF DAYS.
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