Behind That Smile

A  smile  is  just  a  warm  gesture  of  affection
One  smile  can  create  a  thousand
The  smile  on  an  infants'  face  can  cause  such  joy  in  your  world
Smiles  were  meant  to  be  happy
If  I'm  happy ,  then  you're  happy
But  here's  the  reality  of  the  expression
Smiles  were  meant  to  cover  up  the  truth
And  the  truth  is  you're  depressed
Dad  left  Mom  when  you  were  young
Mom  started  drinking  &  doing  drugs.
You  were  forced  to  day care with  no  hug
You  can't  live  your  life ,  because  you're  busy  taking  care  of  others.
People  see  you  smile  and  they  also  smile
Thinking  life  is  great
Yet  no  one  knows  the  reality, that  you  dropped out  of  school and  you're  working  two  jobs
Paying  bills  and  taking  up  adult  responsibilities
Just  another  fallen  victim  of  the  system
Designed  for  you  to  fail   and  become  another  statistic.
But  you  can  wear  your  head  up  high
And  take  pride  whenever you  look  across  your  shoulder
Taking  on  these  mean  streets  at  the  tender  age  of  sixteen
As  you  wear  a  smile on  your  face
Happiness  fills  the  world
Yet  the  problems  don't  fade
And  your  depression  doesn't  wear  off...
So  that  smile  you  see  is  just  an  EXPRESSION !

Where Would I Be ?

Where  Would  I  Be  Without  The  Love  Of  My  Family  &  Some  Friends
I've  Been  Asking  Myself  That  Question  More  &  More  Lately
I  Can't  Imagine  Living  My  Life  Without  Them
God  Has  Blessed  Me  With  The  Greatest  Friends  &  Family  In  The  World
I'm  Far  From  Perfect , But I  Know  They  Will  Always  Have  My  Back.
They  Give  Me  Great  Advice ,  Even though  Sometimes  I  Failed  To  Listen .
Through  All  The  Tears  & Arguments  The  Love  Is  Still  There
I  Love  These  People  To  Death  And  Would  Do  Anything  For  Them.

What Reality Really Is......

Reality  Is...
You  want  him  to  be perfect
Reality  is  he's  only  human
You want  to  be  the  best
Reality  is  you're  on  average
You  want  to  live  a  life of  goodwill
Reality  is  you  have  no  guidance
You  want  to  believe  you're  beautiful
Reality  is  your  self-esteem  is  too  low
You  want  her  to  notice  you
Reality  is  you're  invisible
You  want  to  change  the  world
Reality  is  you  can't  do  it  alone
You  want  to  be  normal
Reality  is  it  just  doesn't  exist
You  want  them  to  accept  you  for  who you  are
Reality  is  they  don't  accept  themselves
You  want  me  to  change  for  who  you  want  me  to  be
Reality  is  I'm  just  me

Reality  Is....
When  you  distort  reality  to  make  it  fit  your  own  expectations
And  by  so  doing ,  it  becomes  quite  difficult  to  distinguish the  difference  between  real  life  and  the  fantasy  world.

LOOKING AT ME FROM THE INSIDE

  You look at me and all you see are very  big  brown eyes and muscles and the things I’ve done in my past and  you judge  with  such  things, but do you know that I’ve been through?  The tears of the storm and the pain of the lighting or did you know that my siblings  are a bloodline  that  I don’t like to call my own .And you judge from things I do as if you know what I have been through. The pain I hold within is more deeper then a thorn cutting you from a bleeding rose, you see me ,yet ,do you know that my soul is blacker that a night sky on a rainy day ? You judge me why ? Cause I reflect on what you are scared to let out, at the tender  age of five I was drowned in pain  and  sometimes  it  still  feels  very  awful  when  I  reflect  on  them. With no way out, I grew older not letting pain get to me but it slowly came back to haunt me . Why cause on  the outside  all you see is  a  happy  Kid , but the inside is more hidden than what it may seem.

SO MANY REASONS WHY I STILL LOVE GOD !!!

ONE NIGHT A MAN HAD A DREAM. HE DREAMED HE WAS WALKING ALONG THE BEACH WITH THE LORD. ACROSS THE SKY FLASHED SCENES FROM HIS LIFE.FOR EACH SCENE HE NOTICED TWO SET OF FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND, ONE BELONGING  TO HIM AND THE OTHER TO THE LORD. WHEN THE LAST SCENE OF HIS LIFE FLASHED BEFORE HIM HE LOOKED BACK AT HE FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND  AND HE NOTICED THAT MANY TIMES ALONG THE PATH OF HIS LIFE THERE WAS ONLY A PAIR OF FOOTPRINTS ,HE ALSO NOTICED THAT IT HAPPENED AT THE VERY LOWEST AND SADDEST TIMES OF HIS LIFE. THIS REALLY BOTHERED HIM AND HE QUESTIONED THE LORD ABOUT IT. "LORD YOU SAID THAT ONCE I DECIDED TO FOLLOW YOU,YOU'D WALK WITH ME ALL THE WAY.BUT I HAVE NOTICED THAT DURING THE MOST TROUBLESOME TIMES IN MY LIFE, THERE WAS ONLY ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS, I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST YOU WOULD LEAVE ME: THE LORD REPLIED, "MY PRECIOUS, PRECIOUS CHILD, I LOVE YOU AND WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU, DURING YOUR TIMES OF TRAIL AND SUFFERING, WHEN YOU SEE ONLY ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS IT WAS THEN THAT I CARRIED YOU."

WHAT I FEEL , MIND OVER MATTER !!! PART 1

Dead or Alive can you see how the stress is formed
Instrumentals in my head pushing out real live deadly poems
They couldnt identify the body who's to say that I'm dead and gone
Personality shifting and spirits lifted leaving patterns to have grown
The name is Jordan not to be forgotten or left alone
Forget about the crosses or the teddy bears to be spread on the lawn
Or the notes and the flowers left in the memory of me being deceased in the coffin
Baby dont cry just keep your head up, just fed up, from all these other niggas stepping on the dead one
Just my expression
Now the days go on as the rain and the lightning hit my tombstone
I can hear every word that these people  are saying
Wishing i was never alive in the first place why the f**k would you say that.
Now i come back to seek revenge from all my enemies,
Come in your sleep, 45 in your face now you remember me
Praying to God " Please nigga dont finish me "
Hah hah no room left for forgiveness I'm done letting you play me
My turn now all you see is bleeding eyes and the stainless off safety.
Having nightmares huh? i don't blame you i jus think you're crazy.
I'd never leave this earth without a struggle or a flame

A Letter From My Heart To My Loyal Friends !

What up world ? Been a minute. I'd like to thank all my  LOYAL friends  who stop by to  drop  words of encouragement and  wallposts  or  to  even   check  up  on  me  even  if  i  stay  off  face  book.... I'm truly grateful.

I'm sure you already know this  life  ain’t  easy  but  we  try so  very  hard to get  to the end of that chapter of life individually.Taking all of the things I've learned with me while leaving all the rest of the “BS”(BULL SH!T) behind.

I've been tuned in somewhat to what's  been happening out there with  regards  to  real  life  issues. I can't even begin to tell y'all how much being on the outside and looking from within, having to witness all that's going on (and not going on) in Life affects me.

Not being able to do what I love especially,is like a whole Life sentence on  its  own. But I really do appreciate all the love, respect, shout outs and salutations during this very difficult period in my life.

Everybody from da homies Nana Loso Kwame, Nat Klaus Da  Pralem, Jerry Amarteifio, my big bruh D’Cryme. Regardless of whether the gestures were the greatest or the smallest, they still meant the world to me , REAL TALK.

The separation from my art has definitely sparked an inferno of inspiration that will soon be felt by all. As a matter of fact, to show my appreciation to those that have been in support of me and  what  i  stand  for ( a  fist  on  my  chest). I'll be releasing a SINGLE very  soon (couple of weeks though)
During this time of seclusion I have developed a mind full of thoughts, ideas, plans and strategies of change to incorporate into my professional endeavors, as well as my personal lifestyle. But none of them is as strong as my determination to conquer my own imperfections and my will to WIN NO MATTER WHAT!!!

I love, respect and appreciate all those who have stood beside me( from  followers  on  twitter, to  my  LOVELY  face  book  family ) and I have accepted those who  didn't. But one thing  is  for sure and two for certain.
As long as the Most High blesses me with the ability to live and breath. My campaign will continue!!! Stronger, smarter, bigger and better than ever.

For those that doubt that me…See me when I become  BIG

WHO I AM...NOT ASKING WHO AM I ?

WHAT IS THE TRUE FEELING THAT YOU GET WHEN YOU LOOK  AT  MY  PICTURES?  OR  EVEN  STARE  INTO MY  EYES,  IF  YOU’VE  EVER  MET  ME  IN  PERSON ?
- A MAN OF  MANY WORDS OR A MAN OF A MANY LIES ?


- A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL MAKE YOU FEEL IT WHEN HE TELLS YOU HE LOVES YOU
- A MAN OF MANY LIES WILL TELL YOU HE LOVES  YOU JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL IT

TO ONE PERSON I MAY BE THE SAME THING BUT TO ANOTHER IT IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT
SEE WHEN YOU TELL SOMEONE HOW YOU FEEL TOWARDS THEM IT SHOULD BE FOLLOWED BY ACTIONS AND NOT JUST  MERE WORDS

IT SHOULD COME  FROM THE HEART FOR NO REASON MORE THAN  TO EXPRESS  YOUR  EMOTIONS AND TO LET THE OTHER PERSON KNOW  WHERE YOUR HEART IS

NOT JUST  BECAUSE  YOU WANT OR NEED SOMETHING AND THROUGH  FEELINGS DON’T JUST  GO AWAY AS SOON AS YOU DONT GET WHAT YOU WANT OR  EXPECTED

A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL TELL YOU HIS LIFE (GOOD OR BAD) AND THE WAY HE HAS BEEN AND HOW GOOD AND BAD HE HAS TREATED PEOPLE

A MAN OF MANY LIES WILL TELL YOU HOW HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE  VICTIM AND HOW GOOD HE HAS TREATED  EVERYBODY BUT WAITS TILL  HE IS WITH YOU TO LET YOU FIND OUT THE TRUTH
SOME  WILL SAY I AM A MAN OF MANY WORDS AND OTHERS MAY SAY  I AM A MAN OF MANY LIES

I HAVE BEEN BOTH AND I SHOW NO SHAME BECAUSE A MAN OF MANY WORDS WILL LET YOU KNOW ALL OF THAT...

DEATHS' NEW APPRENTICE....

 I saw its hands placed upon a humans heart and took the most important thing to him, his soul. As I watched him take him to the other side he pointed at me like I'm next to go, but in his hollowed eyes it wasn't my time ,but gave me a job in the end, so he handed me his scythe and cloak to go do his job as deaths' new apprentice. I'd caused a lot of chaos in every century of the globe terrorized them, gave them time to do whatever they wanted until I made that final decision. Death never came back because it was officially mine for the taking . As the world is  being swallowed by greed I continue taking souls until the END OF DAYS.